I remember last year’s NYE so well. I was exhausted from a year of running, plans, to-dos and fulfilling family, personal and societal expectations. Last year, I sipped coffee just to get over the finish line of 2019 and I remarked to myself that I was glad I made it. I couldn’t wait for 2020 to rescue me from my fatigue, exhaustion and just the hardships of the year. Well, in came 2020 with its own hardships, losses, and definitely some emotional exhaustion, yet tonight I do not enter 2021 with the fatigue that I ended 2020 with. This year, I am not sipping coffee trying to make it to the end of the year physically tired. This year I am rested in my body, mind and spirit. This year, in spite of the challenges, concerns, and uncertainty, I enter the new year thankful for what I noticed in 2020. Thankful that my fast paced life was replaced with a life in slow motion. Slow motion is a pace used to demonstrate how an event unfolds. Not sure about you but I am usually moving so fast that I don’t know if I have time or take time to see and appreciate how life is unfolding — the details — the beauty of my kids’ minds at work each day, the absolutely peaceful surroundings of my own backyard, the laughter of an at-home wine tasting for two, and dinner conversations with the musings and random thoughts of a 5 and 11 year old. During my fast paced life, I was missing out on so much — the details, the vibrancy and color of the beautiful life that I had created because I was so busy being busy with my “exciting” life of to-dos, outings, jam packed calendars, and rushing here and there.
Each year, it often feels like I am running a race that I can barely keep pace with but the hardships of 2020 allowed me to see life from a different vantage point. My once hurried life slowed way down. The things that were once passing me by, were now still enough that I could enjoy them as I passed by at a reasonable pace. When the world shuts down, you can sometimes focus on what is right in front of you and enjoy watching it unfold. Regardless of the challenges we have all faced, I think this year has allowed us all to enjoy life in slow motion and reap the meaningful benefits of its view.
As I move into 2021, I know just from 2020 that life is beautiful in spite of how it looks. I know that blessings can be found in the least likely circumstances, surrounded by the biggest piles of mess. I pray that in the midst of these crazy circumstances and challenges of epic proportions, that you too have found beauty in some of these ashes, joy at the edge of any mourning experienced and blessings tucked in the creases of your burdens.
Cheers to all God has for you in 2021! Happy New Year!